Saturday, August 30, 2014

Sorry for the Delay

     Sorry. I've meant to talk about about everything here in New Zealand with Med. I'll get around to it. When I calm down some. It's been an...interesting visit. I've also been avoiding the blogs some after hearing about the situation with Sanna. Stay safe everyone, I'll be back around with the story of my exploits here soon.

Monday, August 18, 2014


Alright, attempt two...
I just arrived in Christchurch, New Zealand. I'm currently sitting in a small coffee shop in the airport. I also hate flying now: everyone gives me these weird looks when they see my ID. Am I on some kind of watch list or something?

Anyway, I can now say that I've been to New Zealand!

(For some odd reason the post disappeared the first time I put it up. Here it is again, with a small update: I rented a one-night room. It's not too bad, I guess.)

Sunday, August 10, 2014

What Now?

Chernobyl. Just reading that word brings up all the history behind it. In my attempt to evade Dmitri's men, I apparently was heading in that general direction. He decided that if I was looking to spend time in isolation from other people, I might as well go there. He arranged for me to quietly enter and have an exit. I was also given all of the warnings you could expect of the dangers.

I found what I was looking for, except it was different than I expected. I found a person. He didn't tell me his name, just told me to call him the 'Hunter.' He said that he was hunting the creature that killed his wife. When I asked what it was, he said it was the 'Rake.' He believed that he would be able to kill it, and that it would be in the Zone. Apparently, he knew someone that was able to make a facsimile of one of the Archangel's rounds.

On a hunch, I stayed with him as he tried tracking his prey. I was completely amazed. You may call me crazy, but the Zone is absolutely beautiful. One night, after we ate, he asked me what I was doing. I told him my story, and he said that I should be 'taking up all your complaints with that Blind Man.' I thought about that for the rest of that night, and realized he was right. If there was anyone-thing that could restore my memories, it was the Blind Man.

That night, I had another dream. I was outside, it was dark. There was a fire in front of me, and laughter all around. I felt something hit my side so I looked to see what. It was that girl from the last dream, she threw a dead leaf at me to get my attention. We talked for quite a while. I can't remember what we said, but I do remember one thing: I felt happy. Completely overjoyed. It's something I haven't felt once since I woke up in that dirty alleyway.

I woke up to the Hunter shaking me: he spotted his prey. I looked and saw it. I'm no expert on what the Rake looks like, but that thing had to be it. Or at least, something very similar. It was unnerving and creepy to watch it move. I think it also unnerved my new friend, because he didn't take the chance to shoot it. That morning we packed our gear to leave.

"You know, you can leave with me. You probably won't get another chance to leave this place alive and still be a free man."

"I'm gonna kill that thing first. Then...then I might just take your offer."

I told him where to be and what time to be there. Dmitri couldn't keep the exit available for more than 5 minutes. We parted ways after I wished him luck. I never saw him again. Something tells me he failed.

So, I'm done in Russia and surrounding areas. I need to track down the Blind Man...or just accept the fact that I may never regain what I lost. After all, what if I wanted to lose those memories in the first place? What if my wish destroys me, turns me into a monster?

Anyway, now I need to decide on my next course of action. I still have the fake ID's, so I could probably go anywhere. The question is, where?

Tuesday, August 5, 2014


So, I finally found out who I am. You were all right. I found out when those men caught up to me. We had a (very short) shootout. I made sure to go for non-lethal hits only (and succeeded). But, a revolver only has so many rounds...

The man in charge ordered them to stop firing (they had assault rifles, so they certainly had more ammo than me) then said, "I only know one идиот (I believe that's how it's spelled. I don't know Russian though, sorry.) crazy enough to use a revolver in a firefight. Come on out, Carteya." I knew I had no choice, so I surrendered. He said his name was 'Dmitri' and that we had met before. I explained my situation and he said that I looked like Carter. After that, he helped me enter a certain place that I'll talk about in the next post.

Long story short, I'm Carter. I don't know how to accept that. My business here in Russia is now done, I found what I was looking for. My next step is to decide if I want to go further. Before that though, I need to get this all straightened out in my head. I'm Carter. A murderer. How can I just move on with that knowledge?