I walk into the bar and take in my surroundings. It's just a plain bar that could be in any city of the world. It's the kind of place a man would go into to get lost. Or to lose himself. The place is normally crowded, but I chose my time carefully. There are few people left, and the ones still here either are too drunk or just don't care anymore. Or maybe a mix of both. I look for my target, he's sitting at the bar. Just like he does every single night. Third stool from the end. I approach and sit down at the next stool. The bartender 'called in sick' tonight, and his replacement doesn't pay me any mind. I hear Her, reminding me what to do. That I have to do it. i fight back. i lose.
I turn towards him as I say, "You look like a man who's down on his luck. Let me order you a drink, pally." The bartender sends a glass down this way, it's filled with the man's regular order. He accepted it without question. This is going to be easier than I thought. I couldn't help thinking that as the man downed the drink. I ordered another for him, and he started telling me everything. About how he started seeing a faceless man, and was worried about his family. Then his wife divorced him, took his kids and left him behind. They died in an accident afterward. He tried finding help, but no one believed him. The stalker became more aggressive, and he ran. He finally disappeared to here. I listened to all of this, acting interested the whole time. i tried to warn him, run. run while you can. she wouldn't let me.
He said that he hates what he's become, and wishes for an end to it all. I turn to him and smile as I say, "Then today's your lucky day." Before he could react, the poison in those drinks starts to kick in. There was nothing he could do. I stand up and walk out the door, the man's body is found four days later. He was killed in a drunken driving accident. why. why did i do this. why couldn't i stop it.
She's proud of me, tells me that it was a job well done. i'm a murderer. And She welcomes me home. Home. back to hell. It's so beautiful here, I feel safe for the first time. I wouldn't give it up for anything.
i miss s.
i miss s.