Thursday, February 14, 2013

Just an Update (2)

     Happy Valentine's Day everyone. Hopefully, you all had a better day than I did.

     So, first off, I won't make a post next week. I have plans with a friend, it involves dancing. I can only hope the wonderful, tall, and almighty friend of mine will leave me alone that night. (note the sarcasm)
     
     Next thing is to Med (or anyone who is just interested), thanks for your post. I never knew about this 'PTC' that you talked about. If you have any info about either them, or Fisk's people, could you tell me? I also would love to tell you a lot of my research, but you can't be too careful. For all I know, you could be a proxy. But, I'll make a deal with you: if something were to happen to me, I'll have one of my informants give you a copy of my research. I am, as of now, going to start cataloging it. As to the 'dead man's post,' I've thought about that, but with the way my posting has been, I'd probably screw up and you'd all think I was dead when I'm not. I've also read your blog. One word: wow. That was pretty brave of you. And here I thought I was brave by yelling at Mr. Slim that he could come kill me. (note that I had no sleep the night before, and was running on caffeine.) I also realized something: if he is really interested in me, then that also means two things. One, my blog is undoubtedly being watched. Second, when I do have an encounter with a 'hallowed' (or 'proxy' or whatever you want to call them, we all have our own names), I shouldn't be too afraid. After all, if he really is as interested as I think, they wouldn't risk his anger. But then again, maybe I'll just be signing my own death-warrant. Not that I haven't already.

    Also, I am calling some of my informants of the case to lay low. Too many have gone silent, I feel like something is building. But, some of them have gathered some interesting info as well. I'll share this bit, because it has been referred to in many other blogs: apparently 'the agency' that keeps popping up has some way to remove (or at the very least cause someone to suppress) all knowledge of Mr. Slim. Except for, of course, the regular person's idea of him only being a myth and joke. One of my personal theories is that he is powered by us. Or rather, our knowledge of him. If there is a way to remove one's memories of him, it could (if my theory is correct) weaken him. But, it's almost impossible to test.

     Lastly, I know some of you will go berserk about me pursuing the relationship with my friend who inspired me to make this blog. But, it's one of those situations where all endings are the same. One choice is to break off the relationship. That would lead to her investigating. She's pretty smart, and if she read this, she'd find out quickly who I am. That would lead to her involvement. Other is to continue. That will undoubtedly lead to him showing up one day, either when she's with me or on her own, and her getting involved. Either way, I've dug two graves, one for me, and one for her. Sorry, in advance. (if you ever read this) So, I guess that'll be it for the this week, and the next. I'll try to stay alive and post on the next possible week. For some reason, though, that gut-feeling hasn't gone away.

Stay Safe, 
'Carter'

P.S. I'm trying new ways to format my posts. Do you guys like it better as left-aligned, or justified? I also, on case you didn't notice, changed the template. I'll try this one for a while.

P.P.S. To elaborate further on my posting, It'll be on the days mentioned before and on important days (holidays, the anniversary of 'the first sighting,' or the anniversary of this blog.) Days like those.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Still Alive...With a Guilty Conscience

     So, I'm just going to start with the basics: I'm still alive, I feel guilty, and I feel like crap. Sorry about not posting for a while. I'm going to only get on the blog to check/post/reply on Wednesday through Friday. Saturday through Tuesday I can't. My schedule is too full for that. I'll also make an attempt to post at least every other week.

     I feel guilty. I sat, one night during a snowstorm, and thought about all of the runners out there. I feel guilty, because here I am, in a nice, warm house, with as much food as I could want, with a nice bed, a caring family, many friends, and might even end up, against my better judgement, in a relationship soon. The guilt came after I thought of how most runners can't get enough food, or sleep, or even people to talk to. I hope they're all safe.

     I wasn't able to post due to other commitments, and a recent death at my school. To Linux Makavrie, I hope you're safe, and sorry that I couldn't get any names for you. I'll keep trying to find some.

     I also feel guilt, because I'm obligated to tell you all information about Mr. Slim. (or Mr. Tall, it doesn't matter which I use) But at the same time, that info can be dangerous. 'Knowledge is a double-edged sword.' That is the name of my blog, I chose it because of the fact that the more we know about him, the stronger he gets. But, at the same time, the info can also lead to a way to stop him. The term 'double-edged sword' means that it both helps and hurts. The info I have is almost a year's worth of research about him. I haven't released much due to the danger it carries.

     Does anyone have any safe way to ensure that my research can be passed on in the event that I am no longer among the living? And, also a way to inform you all if that tragedy should occur? I know that I'm still new to this whole blogging thing, but I have a gut feeling that my time is short. My head has been pounding for the past week. I'm unable to sleep due to constant fear. I know there are typos in this, because I can't focus. I hope someone can find a way to end this.

    Lastly, does anyone have info about 'The Agency' they're supposed to be a government agency formed as a response to him. All of my leads point to its existence. Yet, they all fall short after that. It's weird. Some of my informants, for lack of a better term, have stopped sending me info after I asked them to look into this. So, any ideas?

Stay Safe,
Carter